اپیزود نوزدهم Dear diary...

Dear diary
I'm dead tired
I'm dead confused
I'm dead undone
I'm dead slow
I'm dead..
I'm dead BUT I dream!
I dream I'm done
I dream everything's over at last
I dream I don't have to try hard to not to try trying it over and over again! 
But I also dream I try!! A hard try!
I dream I don't want anything anymore But I dream I reached everything I want! 
I dream I live without this kinda bittersweet feeling.
I dream I live without feeling guilty about harming myself! 
I dream I live without this stupid regret.

But just now I'm no one but a body
A dead body!